Table for one and a glimmer of hope

I did something today that I have never ever done before. Sat by myself at a sit down restaurant and ate an entire meal. It was great. I loved it and I want to do it again tomorrow. Ha ha. I was feeling REALLY low when I woke up this morning or this afternoon to be exact, and I needed to get out of my house for a while. I was hungry so I thought well, I'll take my book and go to McGrath's. I thought that I would feel weird or out of place when they asked me "how many" before I was being seated, but I didn't. I didn't feel out of place at all. I also brought along a stack of local business magazines I have and started writing down names of companies to send out my resume to, but I only got through one of them before I got bored with it and picked up my book, Loose Girl. I really like it. But I would recommend it to only a few of my blog readers, because I would guess a lot of you would be offended by its subjectivity and language. So anyway, I turned off my phone, ordered a drink, an appetizer, a meal, the works! Ha ha. Waay more food than I need or could even eat, but I just enjoyed myself and it was really nice. I recommend everyone do this from time to time.

When I got home I checked my email and I was super pleased! I got a job lead from one of my oldest (and by oldest I mean our friendship is the oldest, I've known her since I was like 9, she is not old) friends Andrea and I applied for the position as soon as I heard about it. It's an Office Manager position at Northwestern Mutual and they replied and will call me tomorrow to schedule an interview! Yay! I was soo happy! Even if it doesn't work out, it's such a good feeling knowing that someone somewhere has looked at my resume. I was starting to feel like they were going into a black hole of nothingness. Seriously, I've sent out probably 25 resumes and haven't received a single response. Ugh. So, I *hope* to hear from Northwestern tomorrow and get an interview. Thank you so so much Andrea for the job lead and bringing a much needed glimmer of hope into my life! Seriously I needed it.

Also, when I checked the mail today I received my new debit card from the state of Utah. When you apply for unemployment they send you a debit card and this is where they deposit your weekly funds unless you set up some sort of direct deposit, which I faxed the form yesterday. It doesn't mean I'm approved, but I haven't seen a 'claim denied' letter yet, so I have to believe that getting the debit card is a good sign? We'll see. I'm off to bed now. I've gotten into a really bad habit of going to bed at 4AM and sleeping until noon. This is not good for my sleep issues and not good in general. So it ends tonight. I've taken my pill and I'm going to read until I fall asleep. Holli is going to call and wake me up at 8AM tomorrow too. Don't forget Hoe! See everyone tomorrow.