I'm tired of this gloomy weather. It makes me depressed. I need the sunshine and warmth for my well-being. I have put up with doom and gloom for more than half the year, it's my turn to enjoy the outdoors.
I couldn't pick my sleeping medicine up until Saturday. So Friday night I didn't sleep at all and it throws everything off and makes me grumpy. I have my drugs now and got plenty of sleep last night, but it still throws everything off.
I miss my sister and nephew and soon to be brother in law. They are fun and a cute little family and I hate that they live in California. I wish they lived here.
I am so tired of dating or the lack there of or whatever. I don't understand guys. I don't know what I am doing wrong or not doing but nothing seems to work out. I just want someone to spend some time and have fun with. I don't want to get married anytime soon, I just want something to work out. I want someone that I can count on. I want to be a priority to someone. I need something to work out soon or I am afraid I am going to become too negative for anything to ever work out for me relationship-wise. Whatever.
My tooth hurts and is giving me a funny taste in my mouth. Oh and this isn't the one that was giving me all of the headache trouble. This is the one that I went in to get a cleaning and was told I needed another root canal and crown. I can not afford all of this tooth stuff. I cleared out all of my savings to move and fix the Jeep before that. There is nothing left and this new crown is going to be another $400, not to mention the $300 it costs to have the root canal its self.
I am fat. I know I'm not FAT, but I'm fat. My favorite jeans ripped last week and I don't have any others that fit. I tried to get dressed this morning and just sat in my closet and cried because nothing fits me anymore. And I mean nothing. I know this is totally in my control and when I stopped working out end of last summer everything just went down hill. But I'm just....fat.