Twins?

My Mom says that owners look like their pets, which basically means I am the cutest thing on Earth. Wow! Thanks Mom!

Things I'll Never Say - Avril Lavigne

I'm tuggin' at my hair
I'm pullin' at my clothes
I'm tryin' to keep my cool
I know it shows

I'm staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
And I'm searching for the words inside my head

'Cause I'm feeling nervous 
Tryin' to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it
Yeah...

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

It don't do me any good it's just a waste of time
What use is it to you what's on my mind?
If it ain't comin' out, we're not going anywhere
So why can't I just tell you that I care?

'Cause I'm feeling nervous
Tryin' to be so perfect
'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it 
Yeah...

If I could say what I wanna say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could see what I wanna see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

What's wrong with my tongue?
These words keep slipping away
(I stutter)I stutter (I stumble)I stumble like I've got nothing to say

'Cause I'm feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect 
'Cause I know you're worth it, you're worth it 
Yeah... 

guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I want to blow you--away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight?
If I could see what I want to see
I want to see you go down--on one knee
Marry me today
Guess I'm wishing my life away
With these things I'll never say

These things I'll never Say...........

Quote

"Heaven. Hell. Limbo. No one really knows where we're going, or what's waiting for us when we get there. But the one thing we can say for sure, with absolute certainty, is that there are moments that take us to another place, moments of heaven on earth. And maybe for now, that's all we need to know." G.A.

Conjoined Peanut Butter Cups

In case you didn't know..

This is my very best little buddy, Tonka!! I love him. He has lots of names like Tonka-Man, Tonka-Monster and Tonk. He is 10 months old, 18 lbs, and is a miniature dachshund. Did I mention I love him? He hates going on walks, he loves to chew on plastic and my brand-spanking-new-pair-of-sandals-that-I-didn't-even-get-to-wear-once, and he always rips the squeakers out of all his toys. He likes to sit in the sun, chew on straws, and go on car rides. His favorite treats are knee-bones and piggy ears and he loves me no matter what. He loves me even when I don't take him on walks for three days, when I spank his bottom, and when I yell at him for barking incessantly. And I love him even when he won't go on walks for three days, he chews up the carpet and I spank his bottom, and when he barks incessantly.

Today was weird with him. He hasn't been on an official walk in a few days and I could tell that he was getting a little antsy. When I tried to leave after lunch he ran outside on the breezeway twice and once I finally got him in he scratched at the door as I left, he never does this. He's an inside dog and he loves it, so I was a little surprised that he wanted out so badly. So anyway, when I got home from work I leashed him up and out we went. He went nucking futs! He was running all over, sniffing everything, chasing bugs, and he even ran out into the little grass "bowl" in the courtyard! We had so much fun. I was trying to take lots of pictures with my iPhone to remember this rare occasion and I got some really good ones too!

I was laying on the grass with his leash around my wrist and somehow he got away and the pictures are hilarious! I wasn't intentionally trying to take them, at this point, I was running after him trying to catch his leash. I did finally catch him and he had a big fat grin on his face! How these pictures took while I was running I'll never know, but I'm glad I have them!

See, he ran away! Look at his ears ha ha!

This is just a cool picture of my foot as I frantically ran after The Monster

Anyway, afterward I took him to the pet store and got his nails trimmed and his teeth brushed. He got new toys and treats and by the end of the day he was one happy dog. Oh I bought him a new harness too, and I think he loves it! I took him on another walk when we got home and he just knew he was a little bad ass in his new harness. I love his guts!

All the girl dogs want me, Mom

I have been thinking about getting another dog this week. I just want another little guy for Tonka to play with while I am gone. I've always wanted two dachunds to name Tank and Tonka (AWW!). Tonka had a sister that I should have bought when I got him. But she would have been another huge chunk of money and you can't name a girl Tank. Someone should talk me out of this quickly! Anyway, just wanted to show off my cute little dog and the pictures! I hope everyone has a happy Pioneer Day!

Yogoz Boutique

Everyone check out Yogoz Boutique! This is a very small business my sister Holli and I have formed to sell all of the yarning, wood, glass, and other craft projects we create! It's still in the very early stages, but keep checking back we'll have lots of cute stuff to sell! Thanks for the support!

Remember. I have been reading old chat logs for the last hour or so. So many thoughts in my head right now, but once my meds kick in I probably won't remember. So maybe this will help and I will be able to expand on them in another post. Most convos where innocent and brought back found memories. Others were angry and full of bitterness. The one that was the beginning of the end made my hands shake and my eyes cry. A year later and I still experience the same reaction. The recent conversations made me hopeful and hopeless at the same time. Maybe one day everything will be made clear to me, but until then I can't read anymore old conversatio ns. I can't sleep with these thoughts and feelings.

Syrup & Honey

I LOVE LOVE LOVE this song by Duffy!



Don’t you be wasting all your money
On syrup and honey
Because I’m sweet enough
Don’t you be using every minute 
On making a living
Because we've got our love
Listen to me, 1, 2, 3
Baby, baby, baby spend your time on me

Don’t you be out all night long
Leaving me all alone
Because I, I need your love
Don’t you be spending everyday working away
Because I’m waiting for you
Listen to me, 1, 2, 3
Baby, baby, baby spend your time on me

Spend it, spend it, spend your time on me
Please baby
Mmmm
Please baby

Dane Cook

This is on the back of my neighbor's car. I have no idea who they are, because we've never met, but I like them already! I like anyone who likes Dane Cook enough to put this on their car.

Window Cleaner

I walked into the stairwell at work yesterday to find this! He scared the bejesus out of me! I hope he couldn't see inside because I stood there for like 45 seconds taking this picture. Ha ha.

The Warmth

"So don't let the world bring you down. Not everyone here is that fucked up and cold. Remember why you came and while you're alive experience the warmth before you grow old." -Incubus

The juice is worth the squeeze

Boys are idiots. Happy Independence Day.