22 July 2009

Remember. I have been reading old chat logs for the last hour or so. So many thoughts in my head right now, but once my meds kick in I probably won't remember. So maybe this will help and I will be able to expand on them in another post. Most convos where innocent and brought back found memories. Others were angry and full of bitterness. The one that was the beginning of the end made my hands shake and my eyes cry. A year later and I still experience the same reaction. The recent conversations made me hopeful and hopeless at the same time. Maybe one day everything will be made clear to me, but until then I can't read anymore old conversatio ns. I can't sleep with these thoughts and feelings.

4 comments:

Brady and Madi said...

What conversations?! Like on msn? I am sorry :(

John Pender said...

You know, it does a lot of good to let things go. I used to keep my old AIM conversations, but over time I got tired of reading them over and over again and the point came where I decided it was time to put the past behind me.

Your mom got a pretty cool package today. ;)

John Pender said...

Oh, and kill the Angry Georgian link. I'm taking that blog off-air soon.

Meagen said...

Yes conversations on msn and aol.

My Mom did say it was pretty cool. I'll have to look at it tomorrow when i am there for dinner.

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