07 December 2009

More

I've spent the last several weeks trying to figure out what I want. In life, in love, in the future. And all I can conclude is that I want more. I want more than Doba would ever offer, I want more than Chris was ever capable of giving, I want to be bigger than I think possible. I just want more.

I want a job that I enjoy going to each day, I want to be challenged. I didn't have either of those things the last year I worked at Doba and I knew it. Part of it was on me, I think the other part was the direction of the company. There wasn't any more oomph, employees were no longer first on the list and things just changed. I didn't enjoy it any more.

I want to be with a man that makes me a priority. I want to be all they think about. I want to be needed. I want someone that pushes for our relationship to move forward. I want someone that stands up for me. I want a man that is proud to be with me, someone that shows me off, instead of dating me only when convenient for them. I want a guy that takes me someplace wearing a suit. I mean good god, I've never been anywhere where a suit and tie was dress code. That request may be small and insignificant, but I want it. I deserve more than the guys I've dated the last 3 years.

I want more from life. I want to be really happy. I want to have a reason to get out of bed in the morning again. Instead of having to give myself a pep talk just to get into the shower. I just want more, and I don't know exactly what it takes to get it, but at least I have a goal now. Improvement in itself.

4 comments:

John Pender said...

Find something you love to do and you'll never have to work again.
Can't help you in the love department.

Anonymous said...

i went without a job for a while, as nice as it was at first, getting to sleep in and stuff? it really sucks. I know how you feel. I know something great will come along for you though! You deserve nothing but the best. A great job, and a great guy that will treat you like you deserve! Don't ever settle!

Unknown said...

GREAT post! We are deserve the BEST of everything, it is nice to see when people realize it. =) Good luck in everything that you do!

sunni said...

megs, please come help me pick out a name for our puppy. Tonk needs to meet him too!! I bet they will be best friends!!

ALSO, I really want you to be happy. I have finally understood my own happiness and more than anything I want that for you. I want you to meet a man that treats you amazing and can take you to a dress code dinner. I want someone to spoil you and truly puts you first. You deserve it more than anyone I know. I truly hope for the best for you.

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